Monday, May 16, 2011

F is for Failure

I'm gutted to report that my candidacy has been terminated at the QEP stage. I was somehow qualified enough two years ago, but not this time around. I can't/won't understand it. All I know is that I'm absolutely crushed, as my candidacy will expire in October, and I have to start all over in February. What seemed like a guarantee when I passed in August of 2009 is all but an impossibility now. There have already been a lot of tears shed this morning over this news, and I know there are more to come.

I'm obviously going to keep trying until I get in, but I can't help but feel cheated. With all of the other negative things that have been going on in my personal life, I thought this would be a bright spot. It didn't turn out that way. I don't quite know how to process this latest failure, but what I do know is I am going to crawl into the fetal position on the couch and cry.


fsowannabe said...

Having been in your shoes, I understand. You have my deepest sympathies.

Consular Hopeful said...

i'm right there with ya! Stinks! Here's to 2012!

DiploDad said...

Sorry to hear the news. If it's any consolation, you probably would have passed under normal circumstances. I think the budget uncertainty clearly impacted the QEP stage this go around.

That Lady, There! said...

I agree with DiploDad. The budget woes made a difference. There have been many times when I felt as you must feel now, basically at the whim of forces that have nothing to do with me. My son told me that that should actually make me feel good. A rejection under these circumstances has nothing to do with the individual. You're as qualified now as you were then. The difference lies elsewhere.

Again, I feel for you. A year ago, my score would've been enough to guarantee me a place. Now, it's quite different. So I understand.

The only comforting words I have are that this might be a good thing. It's not a good time to be on the Register right now, watching the clock tick. In the future, it might be better.

You also have more time now to master a language. See if you can do that, either on your own or through a new job/position.

And realize that you're not alone. There's a lot of us out here, in similar positions, and we're rooting for you. We don't always leave comments but we're here, and we care.

Nomads By Nature said...

I'm so sorry you've hit this stumbling block. Budget woes are causing so much headaches. I am praying that your situation works out perfectly for you, whether the SD is in your future or not. Would love to have you on board - routing for you to make it!